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Saturday, July 30, 2005

Yes.... I went and now I am still amazed.... The whole worship yesterday was great!!!!!!!! It rawks!!!!!!!!! 2 words just to describe yesterday's annointing- IT RAWKS!!!!!!!!!!!!! We shld do this more often!!! Sonic Fest shld be like every 3 months!!! hahahahaha!!!!! But yes... there won't be much time... that's why they have it every once a year... hahaha!!! I wanted to go today also but if I go I will feel tired again... and if I go... no one will accompany me... so yeah.... rather not go... if not I will be jumping alone... hahaahah!!!! I am still pretty exhausted from yesterday... so I shall stop here... TATA!!!

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

you know the feeling when there are some people around you, whom you were quite close to... and suddenly they changed out of the blue... In a blink of an eye.. and they switched personalities... and they get too distracted over friends and stuffs... and exams are like drawing near... and they dun feel a need to study... I missed talking to them but I am confining myself.. and basically just ignoring them.. I know u can talk all you want later but now you eat,breath and live studying... It is hard to do all these things at one go... yes you can have your fun at times but try to maintain it... Do what is right at the right time... You need to understand that.... I missed the old times... so basically... the old times were the best... but right now... I dun think I apprieciate all the things you all are doing... You might think it is fun... but trust me it doesn't interest me... You might think I am dumb but actually... have you asked for other pple's opinions???

Planet Shakers-Running after You

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes
Your ways I cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's
In Your hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Coz I'm running after You
Yeah I'm running after You
I'm running after You(I will run to You)
I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Coz I'm running after You
Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after you
It's You I'm following today
I'm running after You
I'm running after You

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Yes... Sonic Fest... I have been yanking about it all week... I am dying to meet Sonicflood and Planet Shakers.. oh ya... one one condition... if I manage to get in!!! hahaha!!! Oh great I got back my happy mood again... I think PE is now a waste of time.. Where is our PE Teacher??? Who is our new PE Teacher??? Why is PE now 1 day after the other!?!?! haiz..... recently we learnt how to play soccer... we didn't learn that much either.. we kept on playing soccer against other teams.. So basically, I am only good at hand coordination!! My legs coordination is a failure!!! Playing with the other teams was not really FUN... The way my frens play with eagerness is really indescribable.. Not that they had the skills of David Beckham or anything but they play until u got bruises!!!

During the game, I didn't really wanted to play already lah!!! They play super rough man... and some more... comments are not really that effective... and as u know I dun really have self control at times.. u know at least I counted to 10 when I was really frustrated!!! When we had half time I didn't wanna play at all!!! Instead i took the ball and played monkey with joy, Mei Mei, Victoria, CY, Li Shan and Denise...

So anyway, Happy Birthday to Miss Loh Shu Min!!!! Hahahaha!!! Hope u had a great birthday after what has happened in the past............................ Look to the future ok... hehehehehehehe!!!! Okie lahz... i gtg now bye bye

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

Yesssss.... after for so long.. I am sick with the flu!!! hahahah!!!! Actually the last time I got really sick was in Sec 2!!! So yeah... I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO COME!!! Ok... my crappiness is starting... hahahah!!!!

Basically I didn't do much today... I was like so sick.... So I rested at home... The past week.. I have been coming home late... Like for example on Wednesday... Rehearsal for speech day and then thursday.. keyboard lessons... 5.30 pm I came home.. and then on Friday.. Speech Day!!! 7 pm i went for pukat after that and I came home at 11.30pm!!! hahaha!!! Then on Saturday.. Went to youth and then went to JB and then we came home at 12.02 am!!!! So yeahhhhh Sunday... I am resting... VERY TIRING MAN!!! So yes... getting the flu is not that bad... u get to used the tissues every now and then.. throwing it in the bin and blowing even harder than before... hahaha!!! My description is not that bad man!!! :) Yeshhhh and so... I got some piano scores from Catherine the other day and I tried to play some of it... It was not bad man!!! Some of the scores were quite tough... I will try it another day!!! hahaha!!!!! Okie... I gotta go now.. TIME TO TAKE MEDICINE!!!!

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

So anyway, life has been pretty weird so far... There is the speech day that ended yesterday.. Pretty tiring man... but it ended out well... I was sooooooo angry that morning.. I mean come on man I brought $140 to school and Amanda cancelled the outing... I brought that huge amount to buy sonic fest tickets... So anyway, Nat came along with me lor... After school Nat, Raisah, Li Shan and me went to Orchard to get Victoria's present.. I went to get my Sonic Fest tickets but it hasn't come yet!!! So annoying... haiz.... I came all the way there and it hasn't arrive!!! And guess what instead of just standing there not knowing what to do next.. I bought myself the Hillsongs God He Reigns latest album!!!! hehehehe!!! So this day hasn't been ruined yet.. we decided to have lunch in KFC... We didn't realised that all of us ordered the same meal!!! hahaha!!! Weird.... and after that we decided to head home.. i was like so tired... but I managed to talk with nat about what's going on with our classmates??? Any latest news???

This what I feel lah... the people surrounding me are changing rapidly... I dunno what is wrong with all of them... It is a real pity looking at you guys man... We have known each other for 4 whole years and suddenly you all have changed... WHY??? Man... haiz....

after that.. we went home and Li Shan introduced me to a game like the Sims but it is very fun!!! YAY!!!! I played awhile but then had to bath already... TIME TO GO SCHOOL AGAIN!!!! Getting super exhausted super fast!!! The starting was pretty boring cos of the speeches and prayers... but the performances were pretty good!!! yeah... after speech day ended.. I went to pukat straight away... still super tired...

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Monday, July 18, 2005

life can be unfair at times... U can't always want life that perfect!!! Seriously man... What are u doing??? if u can't answer this, then what on earth are u doing here??????? Gosh.... WHY WHY WHY???? Why can't you just forget about what had happened!!!!! Girl... I know it is hard.. but trust me... Forgiving and Forgetting is a good way to not remember things.... You know... I seriously dunno what I am going to do after what u plan to do.................. haiz....................... :(

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Saturday, July 16, 2005

COmepetition is over.. To me it is just not a competition.. Discovering ur inner talent I shall say... Well... it went well... except before even the 6th song I was already having a minor nervous breakdown!!! hahaha!!! But yah... begitu lah... sudah happy and relieved... :) I love all the songs today... Maybe we should like make a full album based on these 15 songs!!! hahah!!! It will be awesome... You know.. after today... I think I am gonna composed more songs for my LOrd!!! I mean... he rawks man!!!! Never had such a great time knowing HIM!!! So yeah... I am deciding to make the new song called "YOU RAWK!!!" hahahah!!!! Not to funky... but mebbe just right... Beauty towards the ears... :) Being able to write my first song is a great opportunity... I never really had the chance to express my great love towards Him... but yes I love just being His child...

So anyway, a brief testimony on my song... I composed it during my hardest times... I was insulted by my fren and I was irritated by a lot of pple.. I just wanted to be alone!! And they didn't so yeah... I felt much better after that!! Anyway, after all my disappointments in my results.. and stuffs like that... I thought to myself last week on Sunday afternoon in my Nissan March car.. Near the Thomson area... "Why don't I make a song???" I mean it can't be that bad... especially when I can sort of play the piano classically..So anyway, I took this really really short nap in the car cos I felt really tired... and *POOF* the first few lines came into my head but turns out I needed serious help.. so I got some help from Brenda where she helped me with the 2nd verse.. (I didn't know she could write such wonderful lyrics!!!) Nathania helped with the tune and yeah my dad changed the whole tune cos somehow or rather he said dun copyright.. and so within 3 hrs we came out with a tune!!! And we didn't have that much practice.. cos basically I have no idea how the tune sounded like...!!! hahaha!!!!! Altogether we took just 1 week to have the tune and the song just right!! Kind of easy u may say??? But it was tough... I am gonna improve some more... hehehe!!!!!!! Oh well.. yep that's all with my brief introduction on "Jesus is so amazing"....

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Friday, July 15, 2005

Hey hey...
Yes in fact I am feeling much better... actually by now I am suppose to go for pukat or pukat outing and stuffs like that but then today everyone is like practising for the song writing competition tomorrow... heheheheh!!! :) I composed my very first song too!!!

Jesus is so amazing….
Jesus, Your one of a kind..
Your love never fails
As I am amazed at Your great love..
It touches everyone’s heart

Jesus, You’re a great help indeed
You helped me when I was at my weakest point
You wiped my tears away when I was sad and crying away.
You saved me from my falling and even granted me freedom
What more can I ask when Your love is so strong

Chorus:
It is so amazing
When Your love touches my heart
The warmness and tenderness
Blows my troubles away
Thank You….
Lord I pray
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Yes... and I sound well prepared but singing in front of an audience is creepy... hehehe!!! It is kind of my 3rd time performing though.. The other time I sang for a farewell party but only with a few frens.. and then the other time sang for someone's farewell but I went out of tune in the last sentence!!! Embarrassing man... hehehe!! and in another 21 more hours I am gonna perform a song I made!!! I am telling u man... i dun do well in crowds!!! hahaha!!!! I am a jinx I think... hahahah!!!! :) Oh ya... and on monday the 4/9 girls r going to lead the school for singspiration.. ALL THE BEST!!! heheheh!!!! Sing your best for the LORD!!!

If they can do it, I can do it too!!! hahaha!!! Sounds like the song in Anatasia.. ok... oh u know what else?? We change our time table again!!! If we keep on doing this, we will get confused which timetable to used now since we have like 4 copies on it!!!! heheheh!!!! So anyway I gotta go now bye bye

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Saturday, July 09, 2005

Y am I joining this again?!?!?! Well basically in my point of view, I wanted to be known that I can truly play but YOU just insulted my interest!!!!!! You dunno what it is like in my position!?!?! Have u ever tried playing when someone sings???? It is a lot of work... Firstly u need coordination... I mean u need to work hand in hand with the pianist!!!! Secondly u need to be patient u dun expect me to play within 1 day!!! I mean that is impossible unless ur like a famous pianist!!! And u know wat??? I AM NOT!!!! I am just a beginner!!! I am doing the best I can ok!!! 3rdly, I seriously dunno wat u want.... I have no clue what ur doing this for???? Is it for GOD or for other people???? Mannnn I dun even think I am playing for GOD... I think I am only playing for the sake of playing!!! To let pple appreciate my playing lah??? u know at least I can play some chords right??it is better than nuthing!!! If u hate it, I LOVE IT!!!!

You so gotta think twice before speaking... tell me... Do u think u can play before even practising??? I dun think so man... That's y I am making mistakes when I play... Learning from our mistakes!!! It is indeed a good way in learning how to become a better player... U know... Not everyone is perfect... U can't possibly want everything to be perfect in just 1 session!!!! It is an impossible thing... Unless ur this perfect person lah!!! and u haven't commited a single sin!!! I will definitely clap my hands to u!! BRAVO!!!! But on the other hand... UR NOT PERFECT!!!!!!!!!

I know ur the worship leader but sumtimes u gotta listen to the player also man!!! You gotta give pple a chance to tell you wat is right... You can't possibly lead the whole thing urself... That is the whole point in being a worship leader... listen to everyone's opinions!!! Hiya... I dunno wat else to say to u!!!! I feel so hurt and rejected... U shld just take a look at ur attitude!!!! I shall say it again!!! YOU HAVE JUST INSULTED MY INTEREST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have lost ur last chance from me!!!!

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Friday, July 08, 2005

NEOPRINTS!!!!
This is taken on the 30th June 2005

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rough week ahead!!! hahahah!!!! :)
Thursday...
We had this photo marathon during chinese oral... hahahah!!! Damn funnnn... Still got plenty more..

From the left: Amanda, Chen Yan, Me and Jocelyn

2nd picture...

Joce and me!!!!

After that we stop cos lao shi got kind of mad!!!! hahahaha!!!!:)

Now am I like super tired.... cos just now straight after school, I went to church office for my keyboard lessons and then I came home... now resting for 30 mins before I go to pukat!!!

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

YOyo!!! I spent my whole morning, afternoon in church!!! I am like so super tired now... hiks hiks...:( I am sooooooooooo exhausted... I seriously dunno how I can still blog when it is already 10.52 pm!?!?! hahahah!!! Hiya... can't really think of anything right now... Think I go lah!!! bye bye

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Yesterday was a really tiring day!! hahah!!! :) Yes I went to school as per normal.. Then we had loads of homework too because of the long weekend... I dun think it is long... It is only Saturday, Sunday and Monday!! And you call that long??? We received our verification slip.. We have all the dates to our N Level exams!!! All printed with time some more!! hehehe!!! :) Kinda creepy... Mr Samy told us about our graduation dinner... I am still sort of deciding whether I should go.. Haven't told my mum yet about it!!

And yes.. N level English Oral exam is on TUESDAY!!!!!!! Pple dun forget to bring your I/C and the verification slip!!! Important info!!!!

After schoolI went straight to church... had this pesta thing.. so I just decided to drop by but my mum said no one was there yet... but still I went... hahah!!! that's pretty lame!!! Oh well... I am gonna be in church the whole entire day today!!! Think I am gonna bring my homework there!!!!

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